Dougie Tuff

Hey everyone, hope your all doing good. I just wanted to let you know that I finally got a new band going and we have a show on December 15th at the Junction with Dan Potthast (mu330), Playground Heroes, Skantly Prepared, Call for Fire and SuckerPunch. We're called ONE MORE SHOT. Please check out our myspace:

http://www.myspace.com/giveitonemoreshot

I'd LOVE to see all of you at the show. I miss you all so much.

- Dougie

I'm puting a new band together with Jeremy (the old sax player from Chubby Tuff). We have about 5 songs written, but won't be playing out right away. It won't be a ska band, but will definately have a few songs with horns. I don't know much more yet, but I'll keep everyone posted.

Just updating to let everyone know that I will be attending the International Academy of Design and Technology starting January 8th, 2007. I will be working towards my Batchelors of Fine Arts degree in film and digital production. I'm really excited, I've loved film since I was a little kid and finally decided I just need to bite the bullet and go to school. I will most likely be quiting my job at UPS and getting a part-time job while in school. I'll keep everyone posted on whats going on.

I dont have the internet at my house...so I'll do my best to do this:

1) Reply with your name and I'll respond with something random about you.
2) I'll tell you what song/movie reminds me of you.
3) I'll pick a flavor/color of jello to wrestle with you in. (Maybe).
4) I'll say something that only makes sense to you and me.
5) I'll tell you my first memory of you.
6) I'll tell you what animal you remind me of.
7) I'll ask you something that I've always wondered about you.
8) If I do this for you, you must post this on your journal. You MUST. It is written!

So today I officially quit smoking pot. I've done it on and off for the past 6 years and in recent months (more like the past year) it became more frequent and I just can't do it anymore. I lost a job because of it and I just wasted money and it made me lazy and stupid. I can't say it wasn't fun, I loved getting high and having fun, but I'm almost 23 and have alot more aspirations in my life than being a pothead. Alot of people that no me have no clue that I smoked pot, and alot of people who know me very well only know me when I'm high, so reading this may come as a shocker, but this is a good thing. Marijuana is a drug, it's true what they say. It may not have "addictive" properties, but it is, indeed, addictive. I think you get more addicted to how you feel after smoking a few bowls than you actually do to the drug. It is a good/fun feeling, but at the same time, only makes being bored not boring and makes someone who used to do alot of thing all the time, sit around a do nothing. I want to get a second job, as well as eventually be promoted at UPS and I could never do that when I smoke weed all the time. I know it'll be hard, especially when alot of people around me do it, but I think I'll be fine, in a few months, it'll be nothing to me.

But those of you who still smoke, take a rip of that bong, or hit of that joint, or just sit on that blunt for me...Thanks.

What goes up -- must come down. I guess the band broke up. And I seem to have gotten my hopes up about some stuff...and well, it sucks. But, as I always say --> thats life. The good thing is - I'm going on a cruise with the rents this weekend. I need it. A 3-day vacation far away from the troubles at home. Then I only work 2 days at UPS and 3 days at Circuit City (my new job)...and then probably alot of drinking and at some point I'll eat some Turkey and give my thanks and realize once again that another year is almost over. Ah, that sounds so depressing, but I'm not really depressed, just a little unhinged and my head is feeling a little fuzzy. Maybe it's time to lay off the drugs for awhile. Or try some new ones.

But Christmas is coming up ---> BEST TIME OF THE YEAR. I don't know why exactly, but it definately is.

Did anyone see this past Wednesdays new episode of "South Park"? It was fucking hilarious. It was all about Scientology. Cracks me the fuck up.

Everyone have a wonderful weekend...I know I will, basking in the sun and hopefully getting drunk as fuck on a big boat. LOL.

Everything is numb. I feel like shit today, sick as a fucking dog. Things seem to be looking up, but then again, I don't ever know whats going on.

I'm so lost and I don't know what to do. It's been a long time since I've felt this way. Oh well, I guess that's life.


I love Halloween.

I love the weather even more. This is my favorite time of year. I can't wait for Christmas. Not because of Christmas, but because of the season and everything. It's my happiest yet most depressed time of year. I know that makes no sense, but it kind of does.


So let's just go buy a pack of cloves and forget about how much life sucks sometimes. Let's enjoy what we have and not think about what we want.

So I finally took the plunge and I'm moving out this Thursday. We've got a sweet ass townhouse in Clearwater. I'll try and get pictures after we move in and shit. Probably be some sort of "housewarming party" too I'm sure.

I'm pretty excited...but also a little scared.

I also got a second job as holiday help at Babbages in the mall. Kind of shitty pay...but I just need a little extra cash to get me through the weeks.

Other than that, things are good, and I'm looking forward to the 4 halloween parties I'm going to next weekend. Should be a good weekend.

Wow. I don't really know what to write about today. I just think I need to gwt away for awhile.

I'm so confused about everything right now. I used to feel like everything in my life was going great and I was on the "right path" but now, I don't even know if I have a path. Life is so fucking random sometimes. Maybe I've fucked everything up...maybe I should've done things differently. But - I guess you can't go back, only change the future. I need to do some soul searching and find myself. I don't know how or if that's ever going to be done. I know where I want to be in my life...but there always seems to be something holding me back.

I need some meaning in my life.

This is harder to deal with than I ever imagined.

I can't imagine how the people closer to him feel.

I need to get out for awhile. But I have no place to go.

A good friend of mine died Friday morning. He was a great guy, with a baby on the way. I miss him already.

This one's for you "Ohio Ryan"!

YOU WERE OUR NUMBER ONE FAN. ALWAYS WILL BE.

I'll never forget the last night I saw you...and the time you got a free shirt to see your girlfriends boobs. You were a great guy, always there for me and Chubby Tuff. You didn't deserve this.


OHIO RYAN
1980-2005

We love you man.

You will be missed. And remembered...FOREVER. None of us can forget.

i'm a dreamer.

So last night I was once again witness to why I'm single and why I think girls love to play with your head, like it's some kind of game. It didn't happen to me personally (I don't like even talking to girls like that), but it did happen to a really good friend of mine. Don't tease the man and tell him your going to one thing, then go and do another with someone else. In the end, it's ok, because shes not worth it, but when can you say "shes fucking worth it." It's hard to say that about anyone. I only know maybe a total of 3 girls that are "worth it" but they either 1) won't give me the time of day or 2) don't even know I think they're that great (my own fault for not "making a move" but I'm bad at timing and never know what she is thinking). I know that eventually I'll find someone "worth it" but it hard being "lonely" sometimes and sometime it'd be nice to have the support in my life.

I also saw a guy treat a really sweet, beautiful girl get treated like shit by her ex-boyfriend, whom she is still madly in love with. It just made me sad.

Other than that, it wasn't a bad night. Didn't goto sleep until 6 and went through 2 18 cases of Miller Lite.

I've given up. And I'm fine with it. I mean, I've basically been fine for awhile...but now it just set in.

Yesterday I took my old bike out, filled the tires with air and cleaned it up and took a little bike ride. I'm going to start doing that. I'd love for someone to join me, maybe ride down to Dunedin Causeway or the Pinellas Trail. Wow, that sounds entirely gay. But whatever, I used to LOVE riding my bike. Until I was 16 I would ride it everywhere! Plus, with gas prices being this high...it isn't a bad thing...save me some money I desperately need for once.

I'm going to the doctors tomorrow morning at 10:30. I haven't been in probably like a year and a half to two years. I NEED to GO. Make sure I'm not dying. I hate doctors, but I need to do it.

I love my life, it has its ups and downs, but it's great. And lately I've had this new great "awake" feeling when I wake up that I love. I'm not really depressed much anymore, which is great, I hate being depressed.

I partied alot this weekend...more than I orginally intended, but I had a great time. I saw alot of people I haven't seen in awhile and it rocked. On Saturday, I saw two of my favorite people in the world - Melissa and Jessica...who live like 2 minutes away from Steve and I want to start hanging out with more...they rock...and they're very amused by me and Steve supposedly...I don't know if thats a good or a bad thing. LOL.

I need to go down to Ft. Myers soon. I've been trying to go ever since June, when my VAN BLEW UP on the way down. I miss them ALOT.

This is the longest entry I've made in awhile, but I think I'm done. I have to work tomorrow morning at 4:00, so I'm going to bed soon. Goodnight everyone.

i need to stop waiting for something to just...happen.

i'm a pretty good guy, and i deserve more.

maybe it's just wishful thinking.

maybe it's just me.

Come out and support local ska by coming to see CHUBBY TUFF (http://www.chubbytuffmusic.com or http://www.myspace.com/chubbytuff) open for CATCH 22 this Saturday, August 27th. We go on first, at 7:00 PM, so please come out early. Hope to see you all at the show!